Well, thanks to a WONDERFUL friend, I got tagged with this meme BUT I think this is one of those eye-opener kinda tags. The other tag which I found VERY insightful was that 10-20-30 years meme thingy I did. Anyway, here goes…O, by the way, I also won?t be tagging anyone after this is done coz as Edrei told me one has to be in a “confessional mood” to get this done and I think my time/mood is NOW.

I am…

…..that fetus you gave life to after you miscarried my ‘brother? (Had a dream about this once)

…..that cute little baby girl you finally had after 7 years of a childless marriage.

…..that baby who looked like a boy and have always felt like one

…..that kid who got unto the school bus alone on my first day to kindergarten

…..that kid who had a POP casting on my arm for 6 weeks and was made ‘role model? so that kids will not jump off tables in class although I fractured my arm while sliding down the slide

…..that best friend who spend almost every waking hour with you and went all over the place with you

…..that SAME best-friend you bullied/teased and made my life a living hell in secondary school after we got separated into different classes because (I think) I had more guy friends than you (but till now, still has no idea why you were SO mean to me)

…..that tall, geeky, nerdy, and acne raged girl who laid low in school and steered clear of all the popular kids in class

…..that girl who had a crush for 6 years and had her heart broken time and time again because the feeling was not mutual

…that daughter you caned when I misbehaved and went to school with cane marks on my calves (Damn, that thought me a DARN good lesson!)

…..that daughter who felt like she was the son you never had by the way you treated me

…..that daughter who misses your presence SO much and hated you because you left me, mum and sis to fend for ourselves

…..that daughter who wishes you could be here to give her away on her wedding day

…..that grand daughter who missed going on beca (trishaw) rides with you and Grandma in the evenings

…..that niece you always looked down on (be it education or career wise) and made fun of because of my acne and size

….that elder and only sister you have, who bullied you and irritated you till you cried

….that same sister who today, is SO proud of your achievements academically and in sports

….that sister who will always supports what you do and thinks that you?re the BEST there is although doesn?t really show if often nor say it out

…that ‘big sis? who was always there whenever you needed me but now that you?re rich and famous, you?ve forgotten me (and all of our friends)

…that ex-girlfriend who give her all in our relationship and you took it for granted and cheated on me

…that ex-girlfriend who trusted you enough to let you have your way and you abused it

…that ex-girlfriend who didn?t care that you were not rich and stuck by you through thick and thin yet, you broke my heart time and time again

…that ex-girlfriend who was afraid to voice out my opinions because I was afraid of your temper, yet still stuck by you (I call this one pure stupidity now that I?ve ‘seen? the light.)

…that girlfriend who misses you a lot since we are miles apart

..that girlfriend who wants to spend time and be like a normal couple but can?t coz we?re miles apart

..that girlfriend who can?t wait to see you next month after 8 freaking months apart

..that girlfriend who hates it when we have an argument online and finds it hard to make up because online chats can?t really be trusted (Emotionally, that is.)

…that blogger who has written too much and should stop right about now

….that person called Yvy who loves life and wants to live life to the fullest, and hopes that when I die, will have people around me who will hardly shed a tear of sadness but instead are happy, smiling and laughing because they know that I had a good life and to know that I will (hopefully) go a better place.