Little Cozy Corner

Today was my official first day being jobless. But that doesn’t mean that I’m not bogged down with the big bag packing session. I’m leaving for Sydney on 9 June 2007. And Lord knows when I’ll be back again. But when I do, it’ll be the 3 of us! :love: I still have a hand full of things to buy and man, do I hate packing!! But the thing I hate the most…..is leaving all that is familiar behind. However, at the same time, I’m looking forward to seeing Ted again coz I really do miss him. It’s such a tug of war within me and while chatting to Zona the other day, I couldn’t help but agree that is the transition which most of us who migrate over experience. Some can handle it well and others don’t. Me, I’m trying to take it one day at a time and most like taking it slow to adapt myself again after having the time of my life back home, here.

She asked me a good question though, ‘Where is home?’ and surprisingly, I found it hard to answer that for the most natural thing that came to mind was, home is where the heart is….but in my situation, my heart’s being torn in 2!! So how?? Being the happy-go-lucky, sweep-everything-under-carpet, live and let live kind, I don’t think about it at all. In fact, I don’t want to because the more I think about it, the tougher it is for me to carry on with life. It’s no use leaving your heart behind here and then mope about it and think about things here when life goes on, no matter what and where you’re at. At least this is what I’m psyhic-ing [?] myself with. It hasn’t been a smooth ride at all for me although I always put up a brave and accepting front about. It’s going to be tougher after this since I feel so good to be back in Kulim. Sometimes I don’t feel as if I want to go back to Sydney at all!!

Life is different there in almost all aspects, right from the kind of people I meet, their personalities, their characters, their way of life and of course, the culture. I think myself as someone who can adapt easily to any environment and since I believe in this, I make it happen. I’m thankful that I have Ted to rely and depend on, on many levels, especially emotionally. He is indeed my tower of strength and source of encouragement. I think I’ll be all blek without him, seriously!

O well, enough ranting, I’ve got to get back to my packing and get some rest too coz believe it or not, I had a horrid Sunday - I think had my first experience of Braxton Hicks!!! But I don’t think it is….in any case, takuk lor! Wrote about it in Kecik’s blog. If you can tell me if it is or not, do leave me a comment or 2. Need all the experience I can get.