Haiz….today, in about 14 hours from now, I will be on my way to the air port while my heart will be temporarily left behind in Kulim. I may even board the plane without my heart. It will most likely still be clinging on to whatever it can of Kulim.
I can’t believe that exactly 3 months have passed by just like that…..without me even realising it, and now, it is time for me to go ‘home’. Although my bags are almost 100% packed, I always feel that I’m forgetting something. Mind you, I’ve been slowly packing and unpacking my bag since last week and still, I feel that I may be leaving something behind. O wait….I know what it is. MY HEART!!!!
I know this may sound cruel and heartless, I honestly have not missed Ted that much or as much as I know I’m going to miss life in Kulim. I don’t think I need to explain it. Many out there can surely understand this situation and maybe you won’t. I’m excited about going home to see him but at the same time, it feels dreadful too. Why did God make human feelings so complex and difficult? :doh: For me, I hardly had the time to miss Ted because I was always occupied with doing my stuff here with family and friends. I always had someone to chat to even though it would be about nothing in particular. You don’t need to have a reason to sit and chat with Mum about the good ol’ times or share about some down moments in life because that it what you have in common with her. Plus the fact that I have a wonderful and open relationship with her, hence, talking about anything to her is a breeze!
And although Ted and I talk often, it’s just not the same. Chatting with him about my good ol’ times would be like me telling a story to him - Lord knows if he gets bored with it but sometimes, you just want to talk about stuff like that. To keep the memory alive, you know?
Everyone knows that being a Malaysian is all about loving food, in general but you know what? That is not what I would miss the most, although I know it’s going to be hard not to think and want and crave for that odd chee cheong fun, nasi lemak or even a plain chappati for that matter. What I’m going to miss most is spending time with Mum and Sis and traumatizing my 2 pups.
That’s going to be the hardest thing for me. For now, I’m consoled up to a certain degree coz Sis is coming with me to Sydney and the other moment I certainly am looking forward to is when Mum comes to see me in August when Kecik is due. She’ll be here for about a month. So this will certainly keep my spirits up for a bit. But after that…..:worried :crying:
So sad lar……
by consuela, on June 9 2007 @ 4:09 am
Time definitely passes by real fast without you knowing it…however, your mom will be in Aussieland in a couple months to be with you, so cheer up
Don’t be sad dearie…look forward to being with Ted again and Kecik’s arrival! Keep yourself busy…go take beautiful pictures of Sydney on your new camera, etc. Until then, have a safe flight back to Sydney! *hugs*
by may, on June 9 2007 @ 7:29 am
time just flies, doesn’t it? it’s been 4 months that I’ve been here, yet it feels almost like last week that I landed! no sad, no sad! look forward to it, for you’ll never know what great things might be just around the corner. and we’re here to teman you, ya?
by wuching, on June 9 2007 @ 11:56 am
dun forget to bring back lots of goodies from malaysia ya! i’ll be seeing u in ‘border security’!
by simmie, on June 9 2007 @ 3:38 pm
too bad I don’t get to meet you when I come back in July
at least your sis will be going back with you and you’ll have your mom there with you when you have kecik. You’ll be back in Malaysia before you know it. Cheer up
by Che-Cheh, on June 9 2007 @ 8:08 pm
:hug: :hug: :hug: happy journey home dear.
by pelf, on June 9 2007 @ 9:40 pm
I know exactly how you feel!
But yeah, having something to look forward to makes life more bearable..
Take care, my dear
by J, on June 9 2007 @ 11:24 pm
hey.. sorry i haven’t been around.. *muaks* and *hugz* to all ur homesickness! its always the initial feeling u get when u leave home after being athome a long while.. MY sister gets it all the time when she leaves for Australia.. she can’t sleep, or eat, and she falls sick…but you’ll ok kan?
by Aida, on June 10 2007 @ 12:16 am
hey hv a good trip home. and it doesnt help that the you are more weepy during pregnancy eh? wish you a safe flight.
by Jemima, on June 10 2007 @ 10:43 pm
Wishing you a safe arrival in Sydney & into Ted’s arms. :hug:
by sming, on June 10 2007 @ 11:19 pm
Ah? you are back to Malaysia and now back to Australia again?
hehehe.. i guess coz i haven’t blog hopping around lately.. anyway, have a safe trip..
Hmm I wonder if your baby will share the same BD with me.. hahahaha
by JoeC, on June 11 2007 @ 12:27 pm
Homesick is really hard to deal with especially when you know it is gonna be a looonnng while before you can return home but nowadays communicating is easy and keeping in touch will not be too much of a hassle
Have a good and blessed day.
You have been tagged. Cheers!
by Sweetest Sin, on June 11 2007 @ 2:34 pm
thanks u guys….i have arrived safely in sydney and getting used to the cold!! bbrrr…..
by nawooz, on June 11 2007 @ 7:58 pm
i heard there are floods going on in parts of sydney. are u affected by them, yvy? take care yeah. it’s been raining cats and dogs here in KL too.
the dataran merdeka carpark just had another case of deja vu flooding.
by cindy, on June 12 2007 @ 1:19 am
Hey, sorry.. I haven’t been around lately. I only get to read this post today.
Although you’re already back in Sydney by now, I’d like to comment on this post still.
I know how hard it is, believe me, I understand when it comes to having 2 “homes”. Don’t you wish that all the lands are connected, that you could just drive in between these 2 houses? It’s hard, yes.. but at least the one thing you could keep in mind is that you’re gonna meet your mom soon!
Hope the winter didn’t get into you too much.
Take care.
*Hugs*